DECEMBER 1998
Thursday, December 31st - New Years Eve - The last day of 1998!
In our times of trouble
And when the storms came through
Oh how the years go by
There were times we stumbled
We took everything
Oh how the years go by
And if we lose our way
As the years go by
Oh How The Years Go By
By Simon Climie, Will Jennings
We only had ourselves
Nobody else
No one there to save us
We had to save ourselves
They found me and you
Back to back together
And when the sun would shine
It was yours and mine
Yours and mine forever
Oh how the love brings tears to my eyes
All through the changes the soul never dies
We fight, we laugh, we cry
As the years go by
They thought they had us down
But we came around
How we rolled and rambled
We got lost and we got found
Now we're back on solid ground
All our times would bring
In this world of dangers
'Cause when your heart is strong
You know you're not alone
In this world of strangers
Oh how the love brings tears to my eyes
All through the changes the soul never dies
We fight, we laugh, we cry
As the years go by
Any night or day
Well we'll always be
Where we should be
I'm there for you
And I know you're there for me
So what has Scott been up to this last week? Well I've been hanging out with my brother, spending time with my best friends Sara, talking with my fiancé Corey, and packing packing packing!
I don't tend to believe in fate. I tend to believe everything is random. That life isn't supposed to make sense cause it doesn't. But all of a sudden I look back at my life and I see things that seemed, at the time, to be random occurrences, that now look like steps that had to happen to get to the next step.
My brother freaking out, eventually pushed me to the net. The net gave me a sense of who I am, who I had hidden. Then the net helped me deal with what my brother had done. Meanwhile I met three guys that were who I thought I wanted to spend my life with, only to find that they weren't what was going to do it for me. But they, all three of them taught me lessons that were eventually completed by my new friend Sara when I met her. Then the net, and the same person that helped me with the military issue of my brother, introduced me to a guy I thought was not my type. But it turns out he completes me, completes my life. And me him and his.
We became engaged. Grandma dies, and all of a sudden I am free from that obligation. I was very afraid of what would happen to her if I left, leaving her in the hands of her children. Now I'm free to start my new life with Corey.
But wait, there's more. The bad relationship between my parents and the great relationship between Grandma and Grandpa has taught me a lot about both sides of relationships and love. My sister being so much like me as a kid has pushed me to make changes in me to make myself more like who I want to be. My brother, when we were best buds, taught me how to deal with a lot of things that I needed to understand Corey.
And the list goes on and on.
Every friend I have made on the net has taught me so much. Changed me so much. Starting with Troy, the first guy I wrote to. Then with all the guys that wrote to me, starting with Bruce, who was the first guy to write me about my journal. I've made so many friends on-line. I can't begin to name them all, or thank them. They've all made this a great year.
So here I am. About to start what is pretty much a new life. Leaving behind almost all of what made me who I am now. Am I scared? Am I worried? Nope. I was. Now I'm anxious. I cant wait till Corey gets here on the 6th. I LOVE YOU COREY!!!!!!!
So here I am. Yet another step to take. Another mountain to climb. Another mile to go. Another bridge to cross.
Happy 99 everyone!
